Sometimes I have to remind myself that many of my beliefs today seemed like revolutionary ideas to me only a year ago. It is good for me to remember the process of having my eyes opened. I was completely immersed in charismatic church culture. I had never imagined other forms of church, nor had I questioned the relevancy or effectiveness of the church system.
If this very system had not betrayed me, I believe I would have continued full throttle in promoting it. At the time, I was convinced that it was what God was doing, and I was determined to be wholeheartedly involved in His work. I had to be shaken in order to recognize my dependence on this church culture. I often wonder if what happened to us at the hands of our brothers was actually God shaking me loose from this system in order to be able to see what He is doing.
My questioning led me to challenging assumptions and mindsets about church, particularly about structure and leadership. My beliefs have shifted so radically within a year that most people would not understand how I could change so drastically from being a strong promoter.
In “The Shaping of Things to Come,” Frost and Hirsch said:
“Without being too dramatic, this is precisely what is needed for missional leaders and radical disciples who know that the urgency of the day requires a significant shift from the predominant image of “church.”
There are many who are willing to step away from places of security and importance, those without a need to preserve and protect tradition, willing to venture into the unknown and sometimes the obscure, determined to manifest the life of Jesus today, groups of loosely connected individuals intent on being the church every moment of their lives, envisioning and creating fresh ways of gathering to encourage and support one another on their mission of building the kingdom in their midst.